This picture is a whole vibe I'm feeling right now! So, I went to the liquor store, I bought a couple bottles of wine. Because, well I was feeling boujee, ok? So boujee, in fact, I'm drinking straight from the bottle! Not because I'm a lush but because I have no running water and I don't feel like bothering my aunt who has enough on her plate without me bombarding her with my presence that I just so happened to.. well.. force on her.. with a dog.. lol so.. oopsies.. the only thing she said to me was that I remind her of my mom. Ouch! lol jk I have no idea but by the sounds of it, My mom and I would have gotten along really well!
I'm just sad that I didn't get to know her. Ahh well, it just wasn't in the cards for us. However, after she passed away, she did come to visit me in my dreams along with my uncle who passed away too. So that was cool!
All I know is, is that when you do, you know.... go... You go back to look like... when you were in your prime and felt amazing about life and yourself. I've had lots of visits from people that I've lost and loved. And all I know to that first all I know is, is that over there, there's no pain, no bad, its pure unconditional love and an understanding of the inner workings.
I, however am pretty content with being here in my mess. lol Because I know that the universe does have my back 100!! All the time! I have never lost my faith in that. All the bad things happen for a reason, you can't dictate your life around that. Not at all, because in that mess there's some type of silver lining that you need to see to realize that its all done for you not to you. Feelings suck.. which then turn into emotion and if you don't know what you're actually feeling that can go to you're not just hurting yourself. You're hurting the people you love around you as well.. hitting two birds with one stone.
And the entire time.. YOU were the culprit. I've always said that feelings and emotions get ppl into trouble all the time and the world would be a much better place without them! for real! I mean think about it. Every bad thing that happens is because someone "felt" some type of way about some dumb shit that's happened. Man, if I gave my energy away to every single thing that I didn't like.. I'd fucking drop right now.. hell I would have dropped a long ass time ago!!
But I have a secret weapon to help with that... wanna know it? I'll share it with you.
Try not to give a fuck about things that you cannot change. Its not your business to change it so stop worrying about it! I want every single person who reads this at some point to draw 3 columns on a sheet of paper. write at the top I can fix right now, I can/might be able to fix later, I don't know if I can fix months/years from now.
Then think about all of the things that are your issues or think are your issues. If they are not in the I can fix right now column.... I want you to say fuck it really loud!! And not think twice about it again!! Because, let me tell you! Doing this and being taught this when I was an adult helped me drastically. Pretty sure I was working at Suzannes and Jennys in my mall. A cute old couple told me to do that, and when I did it. My perspective changed about so much shit I'm not joking you! It was liberating too. I felt lighter, more free to say fuck it! because sometimes you need to for your own sanity.
So, test drive that out. and see how it goes.. and I'm not saying ruin your life over it! There's some use of discernment here. lol So use that brain when it comes to what I just wrote. Don't blame me if you decided to do something dumb because you didn't understand what I meant.
Anyways, I will always be here to talk!
I'm actually remembering what it was like blogging and I liked it then but I got busy with work and stopped doing it. I had a decent following too and I can't even remember what my blogs name was. All I know for the third time is that I wrote about lifestyle shit and reviews and I use to get alot of promotional shit... so I must have been good. lol
LOOK OUT WORLD! I'M BACK!
Saying that made me feel like saying "hold on to your husbands ladies" haha damn practical magic! Good movie.
Anyways, Sho... -out!
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